Thanks for sharing your story. I've been suffering from depression since I was a teenager. So, I know from my own experience how hard it might be. Some days are better than others. Do you take medications? I use mine but they make me feel tired. I checked the info about them on the Canada Drugs site https://www.canadadrugsdirect.com/ and it turned out to be a common effect. But still, I'm going to ask my doctor about it.