I came to understand through prayer and through this challenging situation
that "There is a name for the endurance we must practice until a larger love
arrives: it is called suffering" (Palmer, 1998, p. 85). I suffered for many
weeks as I prayed, practiced active love for students in my work with them, and
continued to receive no positive feedback. This may sound like a miserable
scenario, but it has ended up being quite liberating. I have finally accepted my
call to love my students regardless of the outcome, and I have become determined
to love this group through their graduation of the program with
no-strings-attached agape love. I have discovered in my everyday interactions
with students how "Good teaching is an act of hospitality toward the young . .
." (Palmer, 1998, p. 50). Indeed, I have received nothing back from this group
of students as a whole, but I continue to serve as their gracious host in the
classroom and in the field of education.