“His was an impenetrable darkness. I looked at him as you peer down at a
man who is lying at the bottom of a precipice where the sun never shines.
But I had not much time to give him, because I was helping the
engine-driver to take to pieces the leaky cylinders, to straighten a bent
connecting-rod, and in other such matters. I lived in an infernal mess of
rust, filings, nuts, bolts, spanners, hammers, ratchet-drills—things
I abominate, because I don't get on with them. I tended the little forge
we fortunately had aboard; I toiled wearily in a wretched scrap-heap—unless
I had the shakes too bad to stand.
“One evening coming in with a candle I was startled to hear him say a
little tremulously, 'I am lying here in the dark waiting for death.' The
light was within a foot of his eyes. I forced myself to murmur, 'Oh,
nonsense!' and stood over him as if transfixed.
“Anything approaching the change that came over his features I have never
seen before, and hope never to see again. Oh, I wasn't touched. I was
fascinated. It was as though a veil had been rent. I saw on that ivory
face the expression of sombre pride, of ruthless power, of craven terror—of
an intense and hopeless despair. Did he live his life again in every
detail of desire, temptation, and surrender during that supreme moment of
complete knowledge? He cried in a whisper at some image, at some vision—he
cried out twice, a cry that was no more than a breath:
“'The horror! The horror!'
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“'Mistah Kurtz—he dead.'
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Droll thing life is—that mysterious arrangement of merciless logic for a futile purpose. The most you can hope from it is some knowledge of yourself—that comes too late—a crop of unextinguishable regrets. I have wrestled with death. It is the most unexciting contest you can imagine. It takes place in an impalpable greyness, with nothing underfoot, with nothing around, without spectators, without clamour, without glory, without the great desire of victory, without the great fear of defeat, in a sickly atmosphere of tepid scepticism, without much belief in your own right, and still less in that of your adversary. If such is the form of ultimate wisdom, then life is a greater riddle than some of us think it to be. I was within a hair's breadth of the last opportunity for pronouncement, and I found with humiliation that probably I would have nothing to say
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